I could breathe

Does it matter?
Its on paper but it isnt official
at least my parents can see it
though they're still not pleased
Why was I actually top ten this term?
Sorry but I don't think I deserve this

Were they reasons or excuses?
I don't think of the former
Maybe I was pressed
but I'm satisfied


Looking back
Nobody told me it was going to be like this
but its ok
at least I can still barely
turn a sad song to a happy song

So I'm telling myself now
its only going to get worse

I could breathe
I'll give gratitude

just preparing to be prepared
no gaurantees