Till where it ends

Eugene...
Wherever you are now.
I hope your soul rests in peace.

I hope your family's doing better...


Well I guess some jokes just aren't funny.



I felt it break.
It was what was holding me all together
When the world returned to normal.
I feel it stop my heart.
For that moment.
I feel like hell.
Peace?
The way it kills me inside.
It was one of the most terrible feelings
It felt so empty
Stripped
Right down to the bone.
Hits me too hard.
I could have cried there.
but Maybe I did.

The alternative drains me but
I needed it so badly
I didnt realise till lately
I seriously don't know what I'd do without it
Your jokes where my motivation
Thank You.

I didn't deserve this
I feel guilty.

Should I be laughter spawn...
Like before

laying there.
was it my fault
guess it must have been.
but I feel it fading
under my skin
can it last?
Please allow me to understand your jokes
I need to


I need a vacation from life
I want someone to kill me and not tell me about it