Chaos

I caught a glimpse of what it would feel like.
I knew I wasnt ready.
This just confirms it.

I should have already forgotten about it.
Unexpectedly shoved right up my head
Wasnt going to go anywhere.
Hard to believe, I shouldnt have.
Pry open my head
Chaos would be found.
It lingers to a point of distraction.

I think I really need a huge laugh.
Right at my own face.
I'll laugh till I cry.

But one thing is for sure...
I'll blame myself.
Its not her fault.