cat in the water

ever since Ive gotten over you
things have been really quiet

and the peace is...
beautiful

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Today was just water
so much of it
hold on
there might still be some stuck in my ear

where was my pink umbrella when I needed it
o well,
didnt we all used to like playing in the rain?

and have any of you ever stared at how the water just falls
I could just about skip lunch to do that
just sit
and look outside my window

I learned how to swim today
yes today
cat in the water
apart from molesting other guys
I cant make it

you guys want me to what?
take a look
Im not kidding
I gave up before you all thought about it

so dont ask me to swim
you got frog
butterfly
erm I dont noe
whats freestyle

but humans
u noe humans
they actually do something called
WALKING

what?
is Sinagpore gonna flood?
you asking me if I ever swam home?
or to get to the other side of a road
god... a road


alright Im just kidding
see the only things I wanna do in a pool

a)check out the babes
b)play with the water
c)play with them
d)

well there isnt a D
so see my point yet

words to the big bad man

Hey Big Bad Man

you

SUCK


oh my god
you have no idea how much you really do suck

we are family dumbass
go F*** a spider or something
leave us the hell alone

what the hell did I ever do to you
Who the hell do you even think you are
coming and messing things up for me
its cause of you that I was mad at my family
it isnt even my fault and I have to go through this shit

man
I really cant believe you
do me a favour
go back to the shithole you came from
never show ur face to nobody

you dont know how much I wanna flash my finger at you

I hope you die


and I wish I could tell you to

Fuck
the
hell
off

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you know I didnt actually know there were actual F***ers like you around
but you sure did take the cake

YOU

SUCK

laugh cmon

I just want you all to be quiet
please

daddy
mummy
please dont do this

coz
you're making me so scared

I feel like run away from all this crap
I wanna lock myself in my room
hug my pillow and go to sleep

and Im really scared as hell

dad
I know you're mad
but this isnt fun
not for anybody

the walls all come down
and you feel a chill right down your bones
makes you feel so small...
helpless anyway

first time I had to go through this shit
and Im done listening to all that crap
Im not even going to try to find out what the hells going on
i just want to shut you all out

Ill play my music
Ill even do D-12- my band
or Eminem
Chef- Chocolate Salty Balls

just
whatever makes you luagh
cmon

I finally realise how much
quarelling really sucks

i didnt wish

I was catching a movie last night
and I didnt wish I was watching it with you

I was having so much fun last night
and I didnt wish you were there with me

I was watching her sleep last night
and for the first time
I didnt wish it was you I was watching

the way i see it
the difference between love and hate
is indifference

Ive thought about it
and Im not sure if I even feel anything about you anymore
its just

you dont deserve this much feeling from me

for the first time since I couldnt remember
Im not feeling crap
Im done

but Ill still remember our story
your story
about a girl

who changed my life

...

I wanna know what you were doing last night
because I never thought I would ever cry myself to sleep

I hate every damn thing about you

you can never imagine how intense this hate is
you cant even guess
you dont even know how strong it is
every single minute
every single day

for someone like me
for someone who has given up everything he knew
everything he liked
everything he was good at
changed his whole life
just so he could feel

and the only thing that is left of me is feel

and every single feeling inside of me
every damn thing that I can feel
is hate

I hate you so much

can you even imagine
everything inside of me
everything that I am
hates you

everything I knew or even liked
I gave it up for feeling

so how strong can this hate possibly be
for someone like me

I hate every single thing about you

I hate you
so so much
I hate every single damn thing about you
I hate what you were
I hate who you are
I hate what you might become

Ive never felt something this strong before
Ive never felt a hate this powerful
you cant imagine how much I hate every single thing about you
and I dont believe anybody feels the way I do about you now

I hate the way you talk
I hate your shiny eyes
I hate the way you walk
I hate your fine hair
I hate your pretty face
I even hate the clothes you wear


I
hate
every
single
damn
thing
about
you

between you and me

I almost dropped to my knees
and rolled over the floor laughing
I was just afraid people would stare

but what I did was stand in the shower
and laugh my head off
because

hahaha
someone actually thinks you're ugly

you sure fooled them didnt you


but now you're dead
and I dont even know it

and
If Im smiling with people
its fake
If Im smiling to myself
now thats real

If Im laughing with people
maybe the joke was good
or its fake
If I burst out laughing from nowhere
now thats real


I just want to kiss that girl in those blue converse sneakers

so lets do lines
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theres a fine line between courage and stupidity
theres a fine line between acting and lying
theres a fine line between giving and taking
theres a fine line between laughing and hurting inside
theres a fine line between insanity and genius
theres a fine line between love and hate

theres a fine line between you
and me

I wanna tell you

hmm lets see
things I wanna tell you

ok
I wanna tell you I know why I stopped playing computer games
I wanna tell you I know why I stopped talking to god here
I wanna tell you I know why I can just burst out laughing
I wanna tell you I know why I can just smile
I wanna tell you I know why I dont feel bored anymore
I wanna tell you I know why I can be distracted from everything
I wanna tell you I know why I drank that beer
I wanna tell you I know why I have no real hobby now
I wanna tell you I know why I kiss my speaker
I wanna tell you I know why I stopped using my school diary
I wanna tell you I know why I dont give much of anything about anybody
I wanna tell you I know why my life changed

I wanna tell you the picture of you in my phone fixes that bloody crack

are we having fun yet

they say
Broes before Hoes

well
my broes aint got the best of me

hahaha
heres an idea
why not YOU guess who does

coz its like
its like
asking L?? ?u?n Y?? if he thinks he looks like an Orang Utan

well this feels like the way Ive been feeling when I was trying to dance 2 minutes ago
so shall we?

the best part of my whole day
was seating in the backseat
listening to the radio
listening to songs that actually stink
wish I could punch the DJ

daddy
dont stop
cmon lets drive to Changi and back

aw
let me drive then

what?
no coz
just ...

I just dont wanna go home
like the way I don wanna wake up
though I actually did at one today

it doesnt feel enough
I wanna do the
'things I wanna tell you' part
guess im going to have to wait

because tomorow is school
a place where wasting time is actually glorified

you wouldnt catch me jumping for joy
I cant think about you anymore
now its just feel

so
are we having fun yet

my HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

Im half drunk and you know what

lets see
this Lunar New Year you guys called

hes not my friend
hahaha
like I know this S***

man does CNY suck
or issit just the stench

I smell my brain
he says: lay it off B****!

we get to eat bakua
get they cash from ang paos
we get to see people we might not even like

imagine if they had a middle finger shoved at them
maybe they'll fold their angpao money into hearts
and invite my friends for some steamboat

my happy chinese new year
man isnt it just selfish people
they turn every thing upside down see
just like that word
idunnoe 'fu'

ahahah well
yo' wealth hafta come from someone else fool

then then maybe its racism
all the chinese get more prosperous
because we suck money from the other races huh?

hahaha HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR
welcome to my house
lay off dont touch my stuff Bi***
go sit in that corner
or ask ur mom to pass me my ang pao

Ill join the uncles
we shoud have a stuff prawn rolls up your nose contest

and I do like ur house
but not you
although it just boes the sh** out of me sometimes
Ill just sit around because my parents want me to
and ill just stare and act all nice
coz I dont wanna piss you off or embarass my family
really
can my friends hijack this place
I mean woah
imagine if we could wreck it
press rewind and do it all over again

you know what
this is chinese new year people
rounds of poker
not mahjong yet
im still not that good but
I wanna con the money from ur lil' pork bank

o yes
yesss its the pig this time
what? we gonna sleep more?
HAHAHAHAHA
what if we feed bacon to our piggy friends
luck luck luck

LOL its all bull
bull bull bull
wait its not hes turn yet but
its just different versions of him I guess
this time its a bull with a curly tail and a fat nose

MY chinese new year
I should do this more
the feeling
stabbing myself over and over
coz I know how my speaker tastes like
you can catch me making out with him almost every other night

man...
Im so going to lose weight because...
the food u all try to feed me
the stuff u all try to cook
and ask me to try

SUCKS
and Im not eating
shit see im not hungry
im not

i only like ur bakua
leme finish them if they're soft
i hate those hard ones that I cant chew
I wanna spit them out and flick them at you

we gotta do this every year
man cmon life is kinda short
maybe
maybe if my whole family
ate McDonalds for the reunion dinner
we skip new years
and still get ang bao money
along with too many chocolate coins for me to eat

ahahahahaha
you dont know how glad I am that this is the holidays

have you ever tasted the ashes

The whitest slap
does anyone even know what it feels like

I cant say its too early
theres never going to be a right time

but I'm no actor

because theres this book Ive beendying to burn
Theres this charger Ive been dying to light up
Theres this other phone I wanna burn
Theres this Tshirt I want on fire
Theres these notes I wouldnt dare to burn
Theres this watch I really should have burned

Theres our wall I need burned to the ground


so tell me
have you ever tasted the ashes
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god
I gotta stop kissing my speaker

what I wouldnt do

girl what I wouldnt do
for you to give me one more chance


I swear Ill be good this time

I swear Ill be good this time

I swear Ill be good this time

I swear Ill be good this time


I swear Ill be better than good this time

I swear Ill be better than good this time

I swear Ill be better than good this time

I swear Ill be better than good this time

stop my music

you dont know how much I want you to stop my music
I could be on my knees begging you
though I wouldnt let u see it

cmon just make my day

please stop my music
please stop my music
please stop my music
please stop my music

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girl
you
need
to
give
me
one
more
chance

...

"shes just for practice"


"oh my god!"


"haha... I was just kidding"


"you so are not!"

would things change

what if I could just cry my eyes out this time

would things change

I know I have all the answers
but Im not listening to myself

it already feels like forever
and theres only so much that I wanna take

god

......

Ive shown you my fucking tears today


so what more do you want to see

please

well Ive just had a thought
and for a second I was unsure

but you're real
so real
who am I to compare fantasy


please
please
please
please
please

I cant wait

my retreat

my retreat


even after a long day
or crap thrown at me

Ill retreat
from all of this
to you

so at the end
manage a smile for me

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we know

we are slaves to our genes