I hope I never wake

My body's failing me
Its asleep
Give it another second

I'll bet it wouldn't wake
I'll bet they hate me
I'll bet that isn't a guy
I'll bet shes blocking me
I'll bet I won't win these bets

My heart is thinking
so I'll not stitch it
but my lights are smashed

Lust is funny
but then again
what isnt

I'm too disorganised
and this is too messy

damn...
I guess I'm surrendering to sleep
and I hope I never wake

I'm losing time
so much time
wasted and thrown in one
never utilised in two

I still feel like a stalker
I feel like biting my fingers off

and truth is my tool


My words are losing its grip
losing its meaning
maybe its because I'm okay

Things hardly get any easier
but they splash on boredom if they ever do
I'll kick myself for complaining

I'm no good at this
and I have nothing to show for
what its worth


Maybe my crooked smile
can match her wicked smile
but I doubt it

and I won't say I love you
until I'm sure

but I'm sure I did