I kinda enjoy it

The 'talk' yesterday affected me alot today
but luckily not as much as I thought it would

still
my head wasnt even there to be elsewhere


I wanna quit 'the game'

but once you start
its too hard to stop

I wish Julian didnt exist for a while
pause
so I can clear my head



well
at least
Im no longer scared for one

but you know this almost feels like hell

but I kinda enjoy it